selamat tahun baru 2012

da msuk taon 2012 rupenye
cpt btol mase b'lalu
mcm2 kenangan sdeyh n apiey yg sy rse spenjang 2011
at the end of the year pulak,2 kli dlm bhaya..huhu
Alhamdulillah xde pape..tuhan masih bg pluang utk sy troskn hdup d dnia ni
n perbaiki dri sy ke arah yg lbih baik..InsyaAllah,i will do dat dgn bntuan dan bimbingan-Nya..

ckp psl taon bru msti org fkr psl azm baru rite?
well,sy xde azam bru pn sbenarnye
juz nk b'ubh jd lbeyh baik dri smua askpek je la...
tu pn x dikira sbg azam sbb mmg lately ni rse cmtu, bkn sbb thn baru..

lg 1...ade la t'nmpk post owg2 poyo yg ckp
"sory,sy xsmbt thn baru, sy smbt awal muharram je"
hekk elewh...
purleass la..xde mkne nye..
prlu ke ckp cmtu?gpown xde slh nye lau stakt smbt new year yg pntng xsmbt dgn cara yg slh d cc agama je la..
sy pown bkn la baik sgt,bnyk lg kelemahan diri ni
tp sy heran dgn org2 "baik" yg sedar diorng tu "baik" n nk menunjuk yg diorng tu "baik"....
so, ikhlas ke x "baik" diorng tu...?wallahua'lam...

pape pown,smoga thun 2012 ni
mmbawa berkat n kebaikan utk kita smua.. =)

bmbng...

xtaw npe...
tp
asyk rse xsdp aty je hri ni..

Ya Allah
smoga segala urusanku pd hri ini
n d msa akn dtg
berjalan dgn lncr, d bwh lindungan-Mu..

Aminn... :

:'(

npe....?
npe awk bt cmtu lg...?
da bpe kli awk mntk maaf sblm ni?
da bpe kli awk ckp nk b'ubh?
awk mntk spaye sy tlg awk utk b'ubh...

sy try utk tlg awk
sbb
sy da start syg awk
tp
awk yg xmo b'ubh
npe awk ikowt sgt rse tu...?
xbleyh ke try cntrol sket...?
sy nk tlg awk,
sbb lau bleyh sy nk hbngn kte jd lbeyh baik..
tp sy lemah lau awk dh b'keras...
smp aty awk...

sy xmrh kt awk
sy juz kcewa sgt2
sdih sgt2

sy xtaw sy bleyh cye lg ke x kt awk lps ni
da bnyk kli sgt awop bt sy sdeyh
smp sy da xbleyh thn sgt2 dh td...

n skrng sy dh xtaw nk pk pe lg dh...

Ya Allah
hnya pda Mu tmpt aq mengadu...
tlg la hmba-Mu yg lemah ini...
brikn aq sdikt kekuatn utk hdapi dugaan-Mu kli ini
aq xsnggp lg dh nk rse smua ni..
tlg... :'(

try..

i'll try 2 mve on with my life
i'll try 2 ignre wut u feel
even if i noe dat i've killed ur soul
i'll tyr 2 4get all about "us"
especially all those things dat u've dne 2 me

i'll try 2 4give n 4get...
4give u
n
4get dat u once exist in my heart..
dats all 4 now..

pic lg!

ntah pape...
i'm thinking...
but i donno wut i'm thinking about..

juz wish u were here..
to clm me down...
miss u so d*** much!

windu nk cubit budak neyh!

teater

a pic worth a thousnd words.... =)

luv them all <3

tu je yg ad dlm smpanan aq..

nnt law ad lg,tmbh lg k....

>_<"

about my feelin again

i dont know wut i feel!!!

i mean

not literally....

i'm juz kinda compius

i should or i shouldn't.....?

am i able 2 b sincere?

is he really sincere?

could we?

OMG...dats a lot of thng 2 think bout....

sumtim wrong ke....??

okeyh...da lme yg teramt sgt xbukak bnda neyh
*dh jd ayt wajib kowt*huhuhu
actly,bnda2 cenggini is nt really my cup of cffe
tp sbb mlm ni bowing gler
tataw nk btpe dh
so jenguk blik bnda yg dh lme aq abaikn ni...huhu
hri ni....err,td..bt monolog
it's the 3rd task utk kls teatr yg aq amik sem ni
n mse bt monolog td aq bru sdr yg......
aq ssh giler nk cri feel sdeyh..
sumim wrong ke with myself ni....?huhuhu
da 2-3 hri cri mowd sdeyh...tp still..empty...
law muwd apiey or angry..mmg... piece of cake la....
*pasan yg amt*keh3
ok..sumtim must b very wrong with me...
sblowm2 ni da ad la bbrape kwn yg ckp aq ni cm
ssh sket nk tnjk emosi...*accept 4 angry*huhu
n aq juz t8 it lightly sbb aq rse bnda tu nrmal la kn
tp lps monolog td,aq bru t'sdr...
mmg aq ssh thp dewa law nk tnjk ekspresi muka yg ad feeling
mcm ks aty yg amt..lg2 lau kne bt2 sdeyh..mmg sure xkn jd la..
nk sdeyh btol2 pwn aq ssh,ni kn plak nk bt2 sdeyh...adoiyai...
infact,sblowm ni...ad sowg stranger yg join 1 program dgn aq pown
bleyh ckp yg dye tgk muke aq ni cm muka owg yg xde prasaan
emotionless.....see??? a stranger pown bleyh ckp cmtu...huhu
whut should i do....??sumone plss tell me....wut 2 do....
at diz point,aq pown xphm dgn dri sndri
npe la ssh sgt nk tnjk emosi ni...?
cmne nk jd nrmal?cmne nk mnghyti feelin sndri?
cmne..............?sshnye....
myb jiwa aq ad lack kt mne2 kowt.....?
Ya Allah...help me..it's not juz about the tasks yg aq kne hayati
but diz time i think its siyes...d*m* siyes!
sumtim MUST b wrong with me rite....??
i mean.....owh,cmne nk ckp ea....huhu
aq kne g jmpe terapi ke?myb aty ni d krs sgt...
emmm....even better...tlg aq utk lbeyh
mengingati-Mu Ya Allah...
permudahkan segalanya utk hmba-Mu yg lemh n khilaf ini...Aminnn

kawan2....

sy ad kwn....

err,smue owg ad kwn kn....?

kwn2 sy sumer best2...

sumer happenim

sumer 1 kepala ngam sy

*tp diowg nrml sket la dri sy =)

tp lately ni

sy rse cm ktowg dh agk drift apart dh...

(ad ke pkataan tu...?wuhuu)

myb prasaan sy je tu kowt

myb sy fkir cmtu sbb..

sbb sy je yg ske fkir bnda yg bkn2 kn

hehehe

mklumlh, bdk 3suku kn

kpd kwn2 sy..

Sspeciallllliey besties sy kt cni

(u noe who u r...)

sy ad 1 pengakuan nk bt neyh....

sbnrnye..

sy les,so b carefull...........................................

uitt2!

tp0oo je lew

sbnrnye sy...

...bkn sy!

phm? "SY BKN SY"

mksowdnye sy yg kowng knl ni actly

not the real me

55% je kowt betol

yg selebihnya tu pretendim je

sy x se"kuat" or tbh spt yg kowg nmpk

sy x sedegil yg kowng sngka

sy x se...... errr,mcm2 'se' lg la...

tp

sy hnya seorng..

xde owg laen dh yg mcm sy kn...?

kn...?

kn...?

*kdg2 nk prasan gakk eyh...?hehe

so

hrp kwn2 smue bleyh trima sy

seadanya sy

smua kbaikan(ad ke..?) n

smua kburukn sy...

sy akn cbe utk cntrol myself

my attitude

my behavior

my habit

n evrytim dat is 'mine'

hehehe

p/s:skrng sy tgh srbt n swel...

lau sy ad bt slh

tlg maapkn n let go of it ye...?

sy xpnah ad niat nk bt kwn2 sy kcik aty

or sdey

or t'luka

or mrh

lau bleyh sy nk smua kwn2 sy appiey n enjoy je....

luv u all my fwens!

tertekan,di tekan,menekan.....

sy tertekan
dgn smue2 test, esaimen n presntation
yg prlu d siapkn dlm mse yg sngkt!
lg2 sbjek grammr yg kjenye xpnh ptus2 dri mnggu ke minggu
dh la sy ni bodoh gilew bab2 grammr ni
xtaw la nk bt cmne dh...ssh kowt nk phm
tgk owg laen ok je
sy.bodoh.sowg2.....
o.0"
huhuhuhu

sy d tekan
dgn masalah
yg bleyh d katakn sbg
remeh-temeyh dri p'skitrn sy
sy sbnrnye xsure sgt dgn bnda ni
tp sy rse toll2 involve dgn bnde neyh
n sy still mncri cra nk slesaiknnye
@_@"

n
sy menekan
dri sy utk trima smua2 ni
utk fkir n phamkn dri sy sal smua2 ni
utk cbe slesaikn smua2 ni dgn cpt dan tepat
*cm slogan la plak...*

tp sy still xb'jaya
kdg2 rse cm nk jd mnusia yg xde feeling
kdg2 rse cm nk g tmpang tnggl kt tnjung rmbtn jap
kdg2 rse cm nk lari dpn lori or ktm yg tgh b'grk lju
kdg2 compius utk rse pe pd stu2 mse...
kdg2 xde kdg2...
huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu

its us dat make dis mess
y cant u understand...??
*tbe2 T__T*
say gud bye 2 my heart 2nite....

saya...awak....

1st,
gilew pnye lamer xupdate blog neyh
sy dh xingt pown sy ad blog...
smp la tbe2 t'ingt td..huhu

dgn sbb tmbhn,
which is m.a.l.a.s n xtaw nk tls pe kt cni,
sy bkn la minah yg b'jwa or b'otk sstra
=)

tp
tbe2 rse cm nk tlis sumtim lakk
actly
bnyk bnda nk tlis
evrytim ad in my mind skrg ni
xtaw nk luah ktne
nk tlis kt diari,tetinggl kt umawh
*gilew lame,still keep a diari kn...?haha
nk luah kt kwn2,mlu....
yeap...sy maluuu...okey...

tp
*bpe bnyk tapi da....



nk tlis gakk la...
mmg kne get rid gakk bnda2
yg bt sy fenin n hlang arah ni
law x nnt sy akn start ber-blog dri tnjung rmbutan lakk
huhuhu

tp
nk kne ssn dlu sblm tlis ni...
gilew pnye messy...

@_@"